Awakening on Dashami of Ashad month

Today under the grace of Swati nakshatra another awakening occured.

Quite in the middle of my breakfast cooking the energy in awareness revealed a previous birth - suggested in another past life session. 

I was lying down. As a thin bodied sadhu doing austerities in a cave. I lay down and died. Remained there. THen after some time I dreamed again. 

I dreamt that I was born as Harish and lived the life of Harish. And then suddenly I woke up to this life as a dream. I realised that deaths and lives are like newer dreams. 

Suddenly I realised that this is like waking up in the morning - just before waking up one I can sense that I am awake but dreaming. i clung hard to the dreamer. 

But now everything genuinely is like a dream and I dont want to die again.  

INSIGHTS 2 - ON VIEW

The Energy in the field of awareness expressed itself to be manifested as a jotting down of Insights

This is an exploration on VIEWS. Like all Expressions, this has validity only for the moment and is subject to the Limitations of the View of the Expression.

View is the unique experience of aliveness or the unique interpretation and expression of the vivid display as perceived by each of us.

First insight is that all Views are equal. No View is superior on inferior to any other. Each View is Appropriate to their unique expression of life. The View and Expression of Life are the same thing as seen in different states or described in different definitions by different Views.

View no only includes perceptions and experiences but also actions. Thus the View of a Hedonist is not inferior to the View of a Sage. Therefore it is said in the Bhagavad Gita - Do not Disturb people who are in sleep. Or as Christ said - Do not cast pearls to Swine. It was not meant in any derogatory manner. It was to prevent violence on another View. Each View thinks their Views is superior and rightly so because it is after all an Expression of their own View.


While each View is Unique, at their source is a Commonality - that of a Pristine, Continuous Awareness that is the base, foundation or ground or stage for all expressions or Views. One way to get a  sense of this is ..if we were for a second, "switch off" Awareness...even nothing will not be experienced.
The View that is currently experienced is that this stage is that the Stage and its Views/Expressions are not two separate but that the expressions emerge from the Stage itself as expressions or displays of the Stage itself. Thus the most used analogy of Waves and the Ocean.

How can we inquire into the nature of these Views ? What determines what appears in the View at any point of time? It must be nature of the state of the View at any point. And what determines the nature of the State? If we go by the dictum of As Above so Below then we could say that when we see the Cosmology outside that projects the Psychology it appears that the planetary positions, the influences of distant stars and further their influence on the people and situations around us - elegantly described in astrology - all these in their elegant dance impact their influence each moment.
And we understand from astrology that the planetary configuration at the time of birth calibrates these influences to begin with.
This thus partially answers the question - Why do all of us have such unique views.

This brings us to the second aspect of the perceptions changing each moment.

While the Pristine Awareness is unmoving then what changes. The insight is the it is the View that changes. This View changes because this View is the function of two aspects

(a) The starting point of the View is the planetary position at the time of birth.
(b) Then as Gurdjieff says the Ascending and Descending Octaves comes into play.
They seem to follow a specific law and all proceeds perfectly.

How do they proceed ?

The Insight is that the two primary impulses of the Pristine Awareness seems to be the following :

(a) Love, Compassion - that results in the expression of manifestation.
(b) Rest - Tired of manifestations and resultant suffering.

So when manifestation proceeds of out love, the View is that attribute. And it is constantly proceeding outward away from Source. Thus the Views change with the movement of its coming forth and the energy of manifesation.
The opposite in case of proceeding towards Rest.

However it now appears that eventually the journey is towards Rest. Even the hedonist pursuing wealth and desires eventually want rest by quenching this energy that is propelling him/her. And find rest. Lovemaking is an example of how the eventual rest comes from the orgasmic release of the energy. The experience of orgasm also gives food and nourishment to that which experiences it. But like the Law of Marginal utility after a while there is saturation and "not as much niceness of experience" from repeated consumption. Paralelly the "non-permanence of this rest" then changes the direction of the energies appearing in the View to find something that can give permanent rest. The View then displays energies that lead in the direction of the Ascending Octave.

We see a characteristic of the View of the Descending Octave is that of 'identification' - caused by the strength of the manifesting energies as compared to the vitality of the View as per its lawful calibration.
Again when the View now brings energies into its field which would be now classified as Ascending Octave, the identification continues and the person starts calling himself/herself as a seeker or spiritual aspirant. All energies that are lawfully (and with compassion) brought into the View are seen by the seeker as his/her own efforts. But these "efforts" then starts slowly expanding the span of the View - largely executing the energy of sacrifice of impressions collected during the manifesting phase of the Descending octave - described in Hindu and Buddhist traditions as Karma.

For most in the Ascending Octave - moving towards rest it is mixed with sometimes the View having display of energies that carry impulse of manifestation and sometimes towards Rest. This is why even practices carry the impulse of Manifestation and Intent even though the intent is Rest.

At some point the View expands enough that the View is also experienced as being self-evident requiring no form or description, along with the View of the play of all energies in it.



But each impulse and display in the View is a lawful and intelligent manifestation of the Pristine Ground and therefore all sacred. Each much be thus allowed to flower freely. Depending on the state of the View sometimes there are conflicting energies - but if no intent is applied, the energies resolves it by themselves and proceeds. That is always the sacred outcome.  And when sacred outcomes are allowed the View becomes more intelligent, wider and truer. But this is a function of Grace. It is not a technique. This is the biggest gift and freedom View - freedom from effort. A huge burden is lifted.

This is what Kabir was alluding to possibly in his poem

Bhala hua mori gagari phooti, Mein paniya bharana se chhooti re, Mere sar se tali balaa

What relief now that

The pot is shattered

I am free finally

From the  labour

Of daily  filling water in it. 

Thus search has no process or technique but allowing energies to manifest freely, when  this View is offered by Grace.
But this is not any superior to the View of the Seeker which requires intent, process, technique and effort. At the right time the View will change with saturation and the same law that applied to the hedonist.

So eventually may Grace bless us with its glance.c Acknowledging with gratitude the Views of all teachers but especially the Views of  Gurdjieff and Longchenpa.

This is the View that is flowing now. May the View expand at its own Will. May the View encompass all the proclamations of sages - that everything is Light. Just as water becomes solid, Light is Viewed as solid objects in this View.

INSIGHTS 1

I respond to the arrival of an energy that wishes for me to transcribe my understanding.

I write from a ground of transition. Neither fully established in the primordial awareness nor fully lost in identification.

There is an early stage of flowering - called budding. Here the experience of continuous awareness is experienced without effort and spontaneously as if by magic. All experiences are understood as a modification in the fabric of this continuous awareness. It is called continuous awareness not in relation to "breaks" - but that it is unmoving yet flowing. Fresh always. Always in pristine condition. Always present in all experiences.

Even moments of identification with any experience is known - because it was experienced as a modification in the fabric of awareness - the only difference being that, during the experience, the presence of the Awareness was not additionally experienced.

All such identified modifications seem to be a function of the yet-unpurified consciousness. Unpurified consciousness  from the unique perception of this 'being'  experiencing awareness only - of the Purified Consciousness . Un purified because of the karmic material gathered during the time of the being's movement from the pristine consciousness as an expression of the love of the Absolute, in the descending octave, enjoying the organic joy of creative manifestation so much so that its sense of identity and aliveness was expressed in experiencing the creative manifestation.

Now on its journey back to the Pristine Awareness, because of the realisation of the transient nature of  the joys of experiencing creative manifestation and further experiencing suffering as a result of such transience, it carries impressions that expresses itself as "ripples" in the quiet pool of Pristine Awareness. They rise up, following a deeply intelligent algorithm, apparently spontaneously, at the right time, to be cleansed and removed if observed in the clear light of Pristine Awareness. The clarity of such witnessing is also as per a natural and intelligent algorithm as it arises at that moment - there is no need for preconceived intent for attaining purity. Intentions interfere with the free flow because the foundation of all intents are concepts which are, like everything else seen in the flow of Consciousness, transient. Visible yet un-real. Un-real understood from a sense of having an independent existence.
Thus each moment there is a constant cleansing of perception with the marvelous display of appearances. Unlike the Dzogchen or similar schools, appearances are not dismissed as unreal. Each appearance always is an expression of this magnificent pristine awareness. How else would the Pristine Awareness be able to experience itself without such a display.

How does then identification happen sometimes with the display and sometimes not happen?

The depth of perception is a function of the virbation/level of consciousness of the being. THe being itself can be defined as the limits of perception, de-personalised.
When a modification in the fabric of consciousness is such that the perception manifested from that modification (caused from past impressions) results in an energy experience that has crosses a certain threshold relative to the being that is receiving the energy through the experiencing of the perception, then it temporarily causes the identification. Yet as it known and experienced in and by pristine awareness, its "energy" keeps reducing lawfully till it reaches the threshold at which it can "seen" and thus consumed This consumption, clears up a certain potion of that karmic material that resulted in the experience. Thus Pristine Awareness keeps cleansing the perceptions of the unique being experiencing pristine awareness from its own unique personal experiencing.

Thus no impression or experience is dismissed as un-real. They are embraced as carriers of energy and vibrations that assist in a continuous cleansing of perceptions so that Pristine Awareness can be experienced with as much integrity within the span of the ever expanding limits of bring.

Even the experience of the body as a solid object  , or the appearances that seem real, inlcuding light and sound, are all vibrations whose energies are "stronger" as compared to the energy of perception. And thus gradually as the perceptions are cleansed, they may appear un-real and without substance, as the sages speak of.

UNDERSTANDING IDENTIFICATION AND SACRIFICE IN A CREATIVE ENTERPRISE

This is for me to record my observations on the inputs and feedback after a creative process.  Especially when it has been written with much intensity.

The wish is now that it is written how can it be let go and see as an independant object without any identification.
So have written something. Will update on the responses that come from inside through feedback.

DAY AFTER DEATH - MONDAY 8TH MAY 2020

Today is the morning after the death experience induced by Full Moon in Scorpio a fresh perspective emerged.

Today I feel the lightness of being and a joyful allowing of  the play of various energies in the field. Allowing the energies to express themselves once they agree among themselves. The sense of the being is back to a free flow. This allows allowed a space of reflection about yesterday that again arose spontaneously - possibly to complete the octave.

Firstly the experience of the death-fear was the arrival of an energy stronger than the energy of my being.  It appears that the conscious engagement of it in the manner it was approached yesterday was part of the evolutionary process. It now can be seen as the ULTIMATE ENERGY that can be generated by the MIND.  The Compassion of the Cosmos is thus giving me that same energy in DOSES that I can digest. The first time this happened, the mind got freed from the limitations of the personality and directed connected with the large ocean.

This time I feel that it showed the path to death. Firstly that this "fear of death" is different from Death itself. This Fear-of-Death is experienced an expression of the grossness of Consciousness that forms the last note in the Octave of identified life. Once this fear is sublimated, Death will just arrive and the Being will naturally experience the  change in the Octave but with NO FEAR OR CLINGING. Yesterday's expression (being reproduced below - is an example of CLINGING)

This was also re-iterated in a call today morning when my retainership was terminated but it felt like a normal organic happening with no fear or anxiety attached. My Corporate life was beset with this anxiety especially as you go higher the more the possibilities.

Death is like that - you go through mini-deaths, organically arranged by the Cosmic algorithms and then this energy will never rise up after a point.

I think of Ramana and wonder what a being he must have had to sublimate such a large dose of the Death experience. And yet he did not know he had a being like that. What a mystery.

FULL MOON IN SCORPIO - SMELL OF DEATH

7th May was full moon in Scorpio

Towards 4 pm today after a sharp pain in the chest I was convinced I was getting a heart attack. This immediately brought into focus death and this feeling, on its own subsided by 2 am 8th May. But during this period, there was an intense "living" of one's last moments. I was extracting a lot out of each moment. However in contrast after it passed, I feel a lot lighter. I also feel a freedom from the desperate extraction of life from living. I am back to living allowing life to flow through me freely spontaneously and bringing attention to whatever energy is manifesting at a given moment in the flowing fabric of being. 

I then realised that today Supermoon in Scorpio is about death and resurrection. 

"The Full Moon in Scorpio represents the beginning of a crisis, as this star sign carries the test right down into the physical plane of life. In Esoteric Astrology Scorpio is about the vehicle of rebirth into the consciousness of the soul, but this has to occur through a process of inner/outer struggle and trial for the final triumph.

“Traditionally the final stage in the mystic journey is preceded by a challenging phase described as ‘The Dark Night of the Soul’. Once the Divine has been experienced in Illumination, there is often a period where this spiritual presence fades. Abandonment depression ensues. With devotion and continued focus the mystic can overcome this spiritual obstacle and progress along the path. Union with the absolute culminates the psycho-spiritual journey. This is described as the spiritual marriage whereby the mystic transcends her personal ego creating harmony and balance in her soul. As a result she becomes one, psychologically and spiritually, with the Divine. The mystic has “died” to her lower self and lives in and through the Divine.” (James Rodgers MD, Asteroid Goddesses and the Mystic Way: Models of Spiritual Transformation, in The Astrological Journal of Great Britain)

FULL MOON* in SCORPIO

May 7th 2020  3:45 am PDT

 10:45 am GMT  | 9:45 pm AEDT

♦︎

::: MOON:::

She stands in her fullness
within the darkness of night.

Her gaze our mirror
reflecting all that we are.

We cannot obscure
the steadiness of her Light.

Cannot deny the wonder she elicits,
nor the way she makes the waters
 flow from our eyes as she pierces
the depths of our feeling natures.

As she moves within the Scorpio energetics,
she open us to the spectrum of emotions
that are ever-present.

In SCORPIO:::

She brings the knowing that we can
face death and move through endings
into regeneration.

She knows that
from the ashes,
she will rise.

She trusts the fertile darkness
that holds her through the night,
knowing that the Sun will rise again
and kiss her face and bathe her
in its healing Light that is
ever-streaming and ever-present,
even on cloudy days.

She LISTENS to the deeper way,
to her Crone wisdom,
to her Maiden desires,
to the music of the Earth.

She hears the cries of the children
and the forest and the creatures
beneath the sea.

And like my teacher
Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes says,
she gathers all the bones of her life,
all of her past experiences,
the heartbreak,
the yearning,
and blesses them,
sings to them,
“pours Soul”
into them.

In doing so,
she is revivified.

All of our life experiences
have brought us here,
and Scorpio, like La Loba,
knows how to heal herself
through gathering the bones
and singing them into new life,
into a new embodiment.

NAKSHATRA STUDY - PURVA PHALGUNI

Sunday April 3, 2020

Dashami ends by 10 am today and Most of the day is Ekadashi. I can already feel the heaviness of Ekadashi.

Purva Phalguni till night 9:45, Ruling planet Venus.  

Purva Phalguni: Ruled by Bhaga who is connected to resources, wealth and luck. He presides over love and relationship, affection and sexual passion. Symbol: Back legs of a bed

Poorva Phalguni 13-20′ to 26-30′ Leo (Simha Rasi)

General Characteristics : Sweet speech, generosity, a habit of wandering, government service.

Translation: The Former Red One or A Fig Tree

Symbol: Swinging hammock – rest and restoration, front legs of a bed, or a post.

Animal Symbol: Female Rat

Ruling Planet: Venus

Nature: Manushya (human)

Presiding deity: Bhagya – the god of good fortune and prosperity.

Overall vibe : Plenitude and freedom 

Male Natives born under Poorva Phalguni Nakshatra

Physical features: He has attractive personality. A stout body with mixed colour. Frequent sweating. A snubbed nose.

Character and general events: He likes full freedom. It is seen that the native becomes famous in one or the other field. However, his mind will be full of disturbances on one or the other matter. He has inherent intuitive powers to know the problems of others. Hence, even before the help is requested for, the native extends his helping hand tothe needy. He has sweet speech. He is fond of travelling.

Education, sources of earning/profession: He cannot be a slave to anybody. Because of this quality often noticed that he will not take up a job which involves subordination in its true meaning. There is a drawback in the native, that he cannot be a ‘yes master‘ even to his boss in the case of employed persons. Hence he is not in a position to derive much benefit from his superiors.

He wants to be sincere in all the work he undertakes. Neither he can be a party to any illegal activities not has he the power of tolerance to see such activities. This condition of his mind drags him into several complications in life and he is ready to face such problems. He does not like to get any benefit at the cost of others pocket. There will be several hidden enemies to him. Hence, such enemies stand as a main obstacle in the progress. However, the native is able to crash suchenemies and attain much success in all the work he undertakes. He is a power monger. He gives preference to the lposition and authority rather than money. He observes right path to the progress and may devote his valuable time for such a cause. Even though the native is able and intelligent he cannot reach the place where he thinks to be. It does not mean that the native will not rise in the life.

In the employment field, he will frequently change his job, particularly at the age of 22,27, 30, 32, 37 and 44 years. He will attain the requisite position only after his 45th years of age. While he does not want other’s money he will be frequently in trouble in the financial matters from others. In other words, borrowers will not return the money to him.

In spite of all the adverse positions mentioned above he, after his 45th years of age, will reach a good positiion where power and authority vests in him. In the business field he can shine well.

Family life: His married life will be happy. He will have good wife and children and also derive much happiness from them. In some cases it has been noticed that the native does not marry the girl of his choice. He will lead a life away from his native place and other family members.

Health: His health will generally be good. However, he is prone to dental disease, abdomen problem and diabities. Even so, no permanent nature of disease is noticed in the native.

NAKSHATRA - MAGHA

Saturday April 2, 2020

Navami part till 11:30 am then Dashami

Nakshatra was Magha most of the day till 11:30 pm after which came Purva Phalguni

RULING PLANET : KETU

Magha: Ruled by Pitr, who is connected to the ancestors as well as father and the paternal lineage. Strong masculine energy is here, with a sense of duty and a need for ancestral connection as well as authority. Symbol: Throne room

Morning demanded a lot of physical activity but as the day progressed it was calmer and easier physically. There was much remembrance of Gurdjieff though no sense of ancestors

Magha (Magha) 0-00′ to 13-20′ Leo

General Characteristics: Has numerous servants, inclination to worship gods and ancestors, engagement in important work.

Translation: The mighty one

Symbol: Palanquin the royal seat upon which the king was carried through his towns, royal throne room.

Names starting Letters : ma, mE, mu, mi

Animal Symbol: Male rat

Ruling Planet: Ketu

Nature: Rakshasa (demon)

Presiding deity: Pitris – Fathers of Humanity guardian angels that give protection in the event of calamities.

Overall takeaway - Will respect elders and get help from ancestors

Male Natives born under Magha Nakshatra

Physical features: He has a prominent neck and a hairy body. There is a mole in the hands and also beneath the shoulder. Medium size height. Innocent looking countenance.

Character and general events: He is very enterprising. He will respect elders. He will be God fearing. He enjoys his life. He is expert in various sciences and soft spoken. He likes to lead a noiseless life. The native will be receiving honor and recognition from the learned persons. He has good knowledge about various arts.

He will devote his valuable time for the expansion of his culture and actively involves in various cultural activities.

His dealing with others will be with a well thought planning and he doesn’t want to hurt the feelings of others. In case any of his action is responsible for hurting the feeling of others, he is immediately tries to rectify such action. He also does not like any person who makes hindrance or causes troubles to others. That is why there may be several hidden enemies in the native’s life. He is hot-tempered. He cannot tolerate any action or activity which is not within the purview of truth. But this mental feeling leads him into a state of failures. Selfishness is a remote question for him. He does several things for the community or society not with the intention of getting anything in return but for mental satisfaction. This is the reason why the native is able to catch the eyes of the public.

Education, sources of earning/profession: He will have many servants and great wealth. In the professional field he cannot attain much success in the material field as he is not business minded and mainly due to his straightforwardness. However, he will be a fitting example of sincerity and hard work. this inherent quality of sincerity and hard work do sometimes pay him some lift but not to the extent when we see the balance. He is bound to change his field of earning business. Once he takes a decision, he will stick to that decision. His dealings with his superiors and subordinates are very cordial and most technical. Hence he is able to be a link between his boss and subordinates.

Family life: Most of the Magha born male natives will enjoy a happy and harmonious married life. He has to shoulder several responsibilities, to be more specific, burden of his co-borns.

Health: He may suffer from night blindness, cancer if Saturn and Mars jointly aspects Moon in this Nakshatra or conjoin in this Nakshatra, asthma or epilepsy.