Jupiter enters Cancer today

This is the study of personal impact on Jupiter in Cancer. June 19, 2014.
Jupiter is most exalted in Cancer. My ascendant based on Moon signs is Jupiter.

Jupiter will be in my 8th House.

June 19th:

Morning 10:26 : Nothing special since morning. But noticing that problems are getting fixed quickly. They appear and then if I stay curious they vanish. Vicious fight with wife. Next moment its normal. Cockroach in car. Vanished in seconds.
Evening : Two strange events linked to money. Both were instances where I had given a word to someone for a certain amount of money to be given and both were overruled by someone and I had to pay from personal funds. In short my money was extracted from me.

June 20th : Was down emotionally. Feeling of envy. Feeling of when will my time come. Feeling that my views and opinions didnt matter. Went to bed with an anxiety that was more organic.

June 21st. Morning : Woke up with a low feeling in the heart. The day was uneventful except
that one activity on which I had worked hard got discarded. I began thinking about why was I made to do it in the first place. I felt bad that there is no value to my effort or that maybe that activity had some other intent that i was not aware of.
I feel the universe is constantly working on pushing obedience and surrendering of inner wishes or opinions.
Everything is being overruled.
So at this point Jupiter is not showing any signs of dominance of any material that is coming from me.

June 22nd.
Worst part of the phase so far. Very low and feeling of no ground beneath my feet. Urge to go back to religious security. Loss of connection with higher with the feeling of no hope.

No need to pray or ask. There is a plan

It is more and more clear that it is completely stupid to plan a life for oneself or to even plan a day. Emotionally investing in any wish, or a plan is a product of ignorance.

There is a plan for us. We dont have to do anything. Then we dont suffer. We take everything as the crop of that moment. And do activities for the moment. Nothing is valid beyond that moment. It has another event. We suffer because we carry a moment to the next. A bad news is the crop of a moment. It has no relevance the next moment. When we dont plan or wish, everything is a surprise. A gift.

We dont have to pray for anything. We will get what is as per our plan. Then karma is not created.

My suffering comes from the fact that my plan for myself is not the same as the universe's plan for me. So if I drop my own plans for myself, I am seeing the universe's plan for me. That in itself is grace.