Thursday, October 13, 2016

Ego mental suffering is the hardest to transform.

Life situations never fail to place a mirror on ones inner material. I feel when I have the wherewithal (inner) to transform material I am surprised how little I know. I am placed in a situation where I can help a person. Yet at that point there is nothing I can do . That helpless is a suffering that has no emotional material to transform. It is a mental suffering of the ego that has power and energy to work but has no outside material to take the action forward. SO I am asked money. I dont have money and I am feeling terrible. That I dont have money . Think about all people who are happy because they have the money. TO make their dreams come true. And I dont have the gloating rights to give someone money when they need it . Oh the flourish of it. Of giving money.
Body doesnt help. It is hard to sense the body without an emotional flow.
I immersed in activity. Humble. Donkey work. And i hid suffering quietly.
THen later relief came. From outside events.

maybe that was the aligned action.

Ego mental suffering is the hardest to transform.

Life situations never fail to place a mirror on ones inner material. I feel when I have the wherewithal (inner) to transform material I am surprised how little I know. I am placed in a situation where I can help a person. Yet at that point there is nothing I can do . That helpless is a suffering that has no emotional material to transform. It is a mental suffering of the ego that has power and energy to work but has no outside material to take the action forward. SO I am asked money. I dont have money and I am feeling terrible. That I dont have money . Think about all people who are happy because they have the money. TO make their dreams come true. And I dont have the gloating rights to give someone money when they need it . Oh the flourish of it. Of giving money.
Body doesnt help. It is hard to sense the body without an emotional flow.
I immersed in activity. Humble. Donkey work. And i hid suffering quietly.
THen later relief came. From outside events.

maybe that was the aligned action.