Welcome back to me

I am here again. Back here whenever I am in a moment of life that is self anhillating. Right now (and for the last 8 days) in the Shiva place. A place between stools. A place of the unknown.  Between the end of the night and beginning of the dawn. Between the inbreath and outbreath. Place of death. No breath. I think this is a rich space as I wait and all the energies inside in such turmoil. I wait for the 3rd force..the new arrival..the new birth. I have to have the strength to stay still even as things collapse around me. Shiva I am here as your minuscule part.