Present Moment Notes

Rite now the body is feeling strange. I am watching Matrix. Rite now a coconut palm outside the window is moving. There is a crow sitting on anotehr leaf. I am watching myself watching the movie..i feel nothing. Rite now Im thirsty. Rite nw I can feel Rebon's head and neck resting on my left thigh. I feel mentally drained. I look again out of the window.  A gentle breeze is moving the palm fonds. I realise that i write slower than the present moment so there is a lag. I fee a window slide open in the balcony 3 floor across. What am i working on rite now? I can sense no feelings. Im dead inside. My right small toe root bone hurt. I hear the sounds from the movie..train passing. wheels screeching.running footsteps.
i can hear no sounds other than the sounds from the movie. I feel I need to sleep or eating something to get back to a familiar state. I hear  myself hear the sounds in the movie. I sneeze. Watched the sneeze. now feel different. thought energy leaked with the sneeze..seeing the sentinels trying to enter the hull of the space ship of Morpheus. THinking of thoughts trying to enter and take me away from the present. maybe they just did. But here i am . Back again. its 14:26. Gone out. Back in again. Feel a tinge of love in side. romantic. 1ts 14:28. top of the head has a sensation. GOne. Saw Neo see the Matrix by association to the sight Buddha saw on his enlightenment. the whole law. the whole matrix.

Wed. Oct 5 228 pm

The being is feeling very vulnerable. And drained of all energy. Back of the neck has a burn. Yet I feel that these are just the shadow side of the energy waiting to be transformed. Brahmi was taken today morning. I can hear and see the sounds of autos passing by. Visually too.the sunlight is sparkling. golden blood of the universe. i remembered present moment seeing needs to include the heart. Dr Lad's advice. One arrow out and one arrow back to the heart. Buses and more cars. pulled back into the mind. some office work. Now back again. I need to remember it is grace to be in present moment. its special. it feels so. more sparking leaves. my body is weak. i can hear the sounds from the edits. I still feel im not alive fully. I now watch my breathing. i can truly feel the body pulling in the air. this cant be a dream. Breath and body seems to be the reality check on present moment. im tired.. Will stay but wont write.